the Intention
How you speak to yourself is so important when it comes to your outlook on the world. When you are trying to grow, there will be many pitfalls and obstacles in your way. This is inevitable when it comes to unlearning bad habits and implementing good ones. When you stray from the path, don't destroy yourself mentally. This will only do more harm than good. Acknowledge that you are human, and learn from it. As long as your intention is pure, eventually, you will reach the point that you hope to reach. Your intention "to be better", will translate to reality, it just takes time and patience. Change doesn't happen overnight, if it did, would we even value it?